is this really something

2011-10-01T00:56:00.000-07:00

there is a good fight
where - the blood is still there, yet
there is no hate

2011-09-28T00:30:00.001-07:00

I want my old man to
know me - but he stepped outside
when will he return

2011-08-14T13:11:00.000-07:00

I in this smiling
wonder at the face - lips curl
look straight in my eye

this frightens me - confuse me
why do they speak with no voice

2011-04-30T13:19:00.000-07:00

She - stands on the beach
black in her wetsuit - smiling
her blond hair flows

frozen in her Kodachrome
in wonder she is fading

2011-04-22T13:10:00.001-07:00

Magnolia bud
remembering the future
this quiet morning

2011-03-20T20:35:00.000-07:00

…

2011-03-18T06:52:00.001-07:00

regret is a blade
stuck deep inside the gut
with no blood

2011-03-10T14:31:00.001-08:00

never knowing when
the darkness looms as I turn
this day ends it all

2011-03-06T16:29:00.001-08:00

it is with regret
that I ) live and let live ( lie
quiet in the tomb

2011-03-06T11:41:00.000-08:00

am not the story —
life reflected in the eye
golden sunset - I

2011-02-26T01:05:00.000-08:00

gaze this sheet - pure.clean
waiting silent as I lay
my pen down and dream

2011-02-26T01:03:00.001-08:00

this is not a poem
about depression - I am
happy to be blue

2011-02-23T13:38:00.000-08:00

slip into the - now
I am here at the moment
you are out of step

2011-02-21T19:40:00.000-08:00

this passion cling me
I need to have this or I
my eye glaze

2011-02-16T21:25:00.000-08:00

now whisper me in the
silence - golden in my
anvil dreams

2011-02-16T21:23:00.000-08:00

there is nothing like
a book - dancing on the eye
envelop me

2011-02-11T23:39:00.000-08:00

is this the screaming
boiled inside - now free to
rest in the quiet

2011-02-11T23:22:00.000-08:00

so he elude this
vanity — little dashes
on the white - he pure

2011-02-04T13:21:00.000-08:00

Me standing in my
sand sift my toes I can now
remember you !touch!

2011-02-04T12:51:00.000-08:00

walk with me - I am
on my own path - but these stones
hurt - I am fine - come

2011-02-02T13:41:00.000-08:00

inside this (what are you now)
little bubble of your mind
sit quiet and listen

I knock and wait
open the bubble
I come inside

fingertips touch to
fingertips naked
to the silence

2011-01-30T17:15:00.000-08:00

is this home a safe
harbor — You strip me naked
in your greed and so

2011-01-24T08:47:00.001-08:00

paint it gray colored
with a hint of black in you
so my soul

2011-01-17T08:27:00.000-08:00

this thing we all know
build your truth on what you see
where is truth

2011-01-13T13:01:00.000-08:00

why do you fear so
the day that I will die is
quiet on the wind

2011-01-11T22:50:00.001-08:00

let me touch the sky
only the good laws are made
to protect the weak

2011-01-07T13:54:00.000-08:00

these words breath a small
life in my soul quietness
I focus to you

2011-01-07T13:46:00.000-08:00

so close I can breath
the freedom clings to the air
in front of me

2011-01-07T13:40:00.000-08:00

set the nerves on fire
jitter the eyes can't focus
lay down to quiet

2011-01-06T14:37:00.000-08:00

what is behind the mind of the...

disenfranchised blend in the silence
sit solid in the ether
invisible gold pure to the real

walking out of sync invisible
to you who crave to the we

pretending to know
the heart of the...

2011-01-05T23:17:00.000-08:00

strip this down to the
simple - pure.true.flawed in my
quiet dreams

2011-01-05T15:11:00.000-08:00

in the middle of
an upheaval my earth moves
collapse my peace

2011-01-04T08:40:00.001-08:00

these words ) step lightness
on air ( float me. silently
in oneness

2011-01-01T07:56:00.000-08:00

hope ) untouched by joy (
silent in the shadows I
reaching for

2010-12-27T19:44:00.001-08:00

exoesoteric

2010-12-17T17:19:00.000-08:00

OK, remember
to breathe <breathe /> calm quiet heart
beating faster <breathe />

2010-12-15T21:49:00.000-08:00

I would like to like
to be touched — until then
she rests in my dreams

2010-12-14T09:10:00.000-08:00

I can't travel this
well worn path you all have trod
I in the Wildness

2010-12-13T13:29:00.000-08:00

this Mercury sucks the breath
try to breathe the air with me
I let it roll in my palm

when are you willing to
travel my road see this world
through my eyes and dream with me

walking your Cold cruel this
has been my road in sorrow
when will you walk with me

2010-12-13T00:41:00.001-08:00

don't imagine you
can twist inside my mind you
walk too straight a line

2010-12-12T22:52:00.000-08:00

when is the last time
I was I am never now
you are never was

2010-12-09T12:29:00.000-08:00

how is hope delayed
drip slow from my soul it is
making my heart sick

2010-12-07T20:10:00.001-08:00

I can not choose when
words will not come to my mouth
I mute

2010-12-06T18:35:00.001-08:00

tonight I wrestle
) once more ( wound me change my name
I bleed for you

2010-12-05T22:04:00.000-08:00

let me take this to
the next level ) break the back (
this can't go on

2010-12-05T19:02:00.000-08:00

this red puddles soft
sticky sweet cloying as you
lie still in your shame

2010-12-04T01:42:00.000-08:00

just one touch this will
shimmer my flesh for days
seek the cocooning

2010-12-03T08:29:00.000-08:00

he slips into dream
smiles as she pauses in thought
recounting her day

2010-12-02T00:49:00.000-08:00

what's the fun to say
it straight — kick the door, swear
it was sitting there

2010-12-01T02:19:00.000-08:00

this path this little
trickle I walk is not yours
your feet are slipping

2010-12-01T02:06:00.000-08:00

this mind — dip into
the water deep and cold — pure
silence — I am more

2010-12-01T01:55:00.000-08:00

when you miss her she
slips into the back of your
mind always with you

2010-12-01T01:17:00.000-08:00

let us for a time
touch this life with a little
lightness — then we fly

2010-11-30T05:15:00.000-08:00

he slipping into the room
went quiet to the side
blending in the wall

2010-11-29T19:57:00.000-08:00

on the verge of
escape from sanity he
is slipping slipping

2010-11-27T17:04:00.000-08:00

You break my soul an
inch a day — You who should heal
how do you love

2010-11-27T16:01:00.001-08:00

we come together
always wounding in small cuts
miss you

2010-11-26T13:23:00.000-08:00

She Carried Me

only the cracked at the seams
can understand
this is not the way you would choose
I revel at the broken streams

she played at the banks
of the Arroyo Seco
unaware of the tensions
between the walls

I listen to the same song
a hundred times
but still I'm not sure
how to cry
one day the diamonds will
sparkle in my eye

she straps on her
metal roller skates
and rolls for miles
'til the wind drives
the hate from her ears

we are holding hands
I know she understands
I wonder where she is
her last words are
still ringing in my ears

2010-11-26T06:14:00.001-08:00

why do you love me
sitting quiet on the porch
watching the sun set

2010-11-24T12:11:00.000-08:00

who are you to
believe you are one of us
in this life ) searing (

2010-11-22T05:55:00.000-08:00

toss on each stone this
mountain grow grief.joy both build
life

2010-11-21T19:15:00.000-08:00

so many lives intertwined
make this being nice thing
a burden

2010-11-21T18:30:00.000-08:00

lost in the baking
aisle she is glad of her small
adventures

2010-11-21T12:23:00.000-08:00

in this one moment
the heart stops the soul sinks
the door closes

2010-11-21T00:40:00.000-08:00

one step away from
this is not the silent I
fade into you

2010-11-21T00:26:00.000-08:00

why do I have to
say what you want me to say
I am a Hurricane

2010-11-20T08:03:00.001-08:00

try is not a word
doing is in the failure
I bleed

2010-11-14T16:46:00.002-08:00

singe me

2010-11-14T16:46:00.000-08:00

seek the elusive
minimum syllabic count
to be deemed a poem

2010-11-13T15:05:00.000-08:00

iandthisyoutouchme
cringemysoulshivermyskin
crawlintomyself

2010-11-11T00:33:00.000-08:00

inside these walls
) what is it you depend on (
it is this safety

I am only here today but
) there is only today (
when will tomorrow come

these calming walls close
) tomorrow is out of reach (
in tight (so) — I am —

2010-11-10T23:04:00.000-08:00

when this moment pass
pass pass I can dream behind
this silk wall

2010-11-10T22:59:00.000-08:00

stand exposed naked
to the world how can I be
out of phase

2010-11-01T12:59:00.000-07:00

look.touch.smell.live my
words are an avatar You
are periphery

2010-05-31T13:07:00.000-07:00

in this is is not
one moment you I are now
am an only one

2010-05-30T19:12:00.001-07:00

when will we meet - now
we look into our soul - can
we look in the eye

2010-05-30T08:38:00.001-07:00

lay me in the warm
earth — this day I longed for - I
peer your blood soaked face

2010-05-30T07:42:00.000-07:00

remember the day
this young man — hold in your fear
cold dark wait to die

2010-05-30T07:32:00.001-07:00

kiss me in
the morning
sweet cool you —
it linger

slide your sweet
finger down
my soft warm
cheek — eyes touch

memory
of you lay
before me
in my day

and there you
are quiet
on your warm
pillow

2010-05-10T01:37:00.000-07:00

quiet now — hold your mind
still — calm the waters
focus on eternity —
quiet — now hold your mind

just — for a second
then let it go — breathless
quiet — now hold your mind —
still - calm — the waters

2010-05-05T01:44:00.001-07:00

walk this way alone
unaware - so why is
this thing so important

to you when I cannot
see it - this music moves
at an awkward pace

I see the patterns
an unbroken static
singing - only to me

2010-04-13T22:32:00.000-07:00

what is this
pushing in
a weakness
no
this wall
imobile
hold in
inside
my
hold out
you

2010-04-05T12:22:00.000-07:00

the evidence of
)your love rests( at the corner
of the eye

2010-04-04T21:53:00.000-07:00

I, yes, in this blackness
shattered leg run this race
you you have no knowledge
to symphathys (no need)

kiss kiss the silently
you I I feel this in the
pit of my stomach

is there a time to
clean myself of
everything - left
to only me

only me then
nothingness

sit the silent

2010-04-01T13:56:00.000-07:00

so is this chaos
sudden silent neverness
beginning

2010-04-01T05:30:00.000-07:00

the world could be gone
tomorrow ( turn to nothing (
never was ))

2010-04-01T04:57:00.001-07:00

black days ahead — turn
into nothing - less - into
never was

2010-03-18T06:30:00.000-07:00

alone in the world alone
in the world alone in
the world alone in the
world alone

in the world
we walk light
so barely touch

these souls walk
alone in the world

2010-03-11T08:58:00.001-08:00

kiss In the silence
in the golden Answer —
You move me

2010-03-06T23:04:00.000-08:00

and he said is there
anyone who will cry for me —
see the stone skip

2010-03-01T18:24:00.000-08:00

you intensify
my mind turn in inside my
silently

2010-02-20T23:13:00.000-08:00

to touch the moment
a word.thought.pause
then let it float

free into the air
and forget …

2010-02-09T12:12:00.000-08:00

unformed thought()bubble
up) mind my (how to live in
backward is

2010-02-08T16:02:00.000-08:00

turn the ear — this buzz —
what is this a thing called words
I silently

2010-02-05T12:49:00.000-08:00

the small things) walk by
your door and wink a smile to
me (I see

2010-02-04T13:41:00.000-08:00

walking this way turn
here is the door )hesitate(
turn away

2010-01-27T09:14:00.001-08:00

how
do
I find
my love
good morning
is this my
bright blue eyes

2010-01-20T23:37:00.001-08:00

cemetery me
put me away in a box
to forget

2010-01-19T09:51:00.000-08:00

        16

inclusion — someday to be
    I love those who think
with those who are like me —

differently than me —
    with someone who understands.
to keep me out of myself.

Sometimes I feel so alone
    They are so unique
as an alien in a foreign land —

It broadens my narrow world
    someone must know me.
and fills me up.

2010-01-15T14:53:00.001-08:00

Journal

broke my silence today
opened my mouth
and spoke to you
it wasn't much -

"Hello, how are you?"
I said.
You said,
"I love you."

maybe tomorrow
I will sit close
look you in the eye
and say it in your ear